Darius Simpson & Scout Bostley – “Lost Voices” (CUPSI 2015)

Darius Simpson & Scout Bostley – “Lost Voices” (CUPSI 2015)

The first day I realized I was black, it was
2000, we had just learned about blacks for the first time in 2nd grade. At recess, all
the white kids chased me into the woods chanting slave. My mother said I refused to come
out for three hours, said she thinks I was lost in the trees, but I just needed to be
closer to my roots. As a woman,
having a boyfriend is a battle If 70% of us are abused in a lifetime
what is the number of men doing it? The answer is not 1
man running faster than light to complete a mission
and that is what leaves me sick The second day I realized I was black, was
in a gas station I only had 25 cents so I searched what to spend it on. The cashier
floated from aisle to aisle eyes fixed on my hands. That was the first time I realized
skin color was a crime, My body has become cause to write legislation
cause for ass smacks in the back of a class my body has demanded everything except respect.
I have been asked “what makes you feel unsafe”
and I struggle not to yell EVERYTHING
The third day I realized I was black was in an all-white cafeteria. I gathered my legs
under me, made rockets of my feet and approached a girl. She told me she wasn’t into my type
of guy. I felt the words shoot daggers into my melanin, I’ve never wanted to disappear
so bad. As a woman I’ve learned to answer to everything
except my name little lady is not said to mean equal but
to make sure I remember my place I battle between wanting to own my body and
accepting that there is a one in four chance a man will lay claim to my skin
a plot of land for the taking The last day I realized I was black was in
an elevator in California. To the white woman that told me she knows what it feels like
to be black because she grew up poor, I would tell you to think before you speak
but your mind has got to be bacteria infected and any filter through that labyrinth of nothingness
might be worse than no thought at all. There is a group of women going around the
room sharing their personal definition of feminism
He is the only man in the room and all of a sudden the tone switches to
destroying the patriarchy by annihilating all men.
Do you know what it means to be black, to pop lock your way in and out of hugs?
It is not a problem that you want to sympathize but to tell me you know my pain, is to stab
yourself in the leg because you saw me get shot. We have two different wounds, and looking
at yours does nothing to heal mine, Never will I turn away an ally
but when a man speaks on my behalf that only proves my point
Movements are driven by passion not by asserting yourself dominant by a world
that already put you there You speak to know pain you only fathom because
we told you it was there You know nothing of silence, until someone
who cannot know your pain tells you how to fix it. Every day is a crucifixion when there
is no regard for lines crossed. I fight so my voice can be heard
I fight for the voices you silence all in the name of what is right
The problem is you assume this struggle is attached to a social class, I am black and
and beautiful by nature, ain’t no income that can change that.
The problem with speaking up for each other is that everyone is left without a voice.


  1. While I don't 10% agree with what was being said, I really loved the execution! Both individuals are SO talented. Wow.

  2. "but to tell me you know my pain
    is to stab yourself in the leg
    cause you saw me get shot
    we have two different wounds
    and looking at yours does nothing to heal mine"
    this is so good

  3. It was so awkward when the teacher played this in class .. being the only black girl ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ

  4. PC bullshit! It's individual rights to whom they like or don't like. Would they force a black girl to date white men who are not into white guys. Lot of white girls are pressured to like and date black men even if they don't like them. This propaganda is spread through academy, press media and hollywood.

  5. Saw a part of this on Instagram, finally found the full video!
    Too good! Will definitely use this for my research on suppressed classes of society.

  6. wow…let's all learn from this great video…..talk about walking a mile in the moccasins of our fellowman….

  7. These youngsters brought a flood of nightmarish memories to my mind and tears to my eyes with their poetry.

  8. For the people who are continuing to watch this amazing video: don't get caught up on the context. This is all about how people's voices are never recognized by others, they are oppressed. This is NOT a video about how black people struggle more than others, or how women struggle more than others. This video does shed some light on the topics but it is not what the poem was completely intended to be about. I hope that this means something to someone.

  9. Oh this shit is stupid , notice he said women not whiten women, so the message is clear, and if you donโ€™t get this message then there is no critical thinking in you.

  10. My English 2 teacher played this for us in class today, and I love it. Everyone was asking if we could watch more videos like this one.

  11. White men don't understand whats it's like to live in a world where you are less than because of how you were born. There is nothing I could've done to not be female, but I should not be treated like I am inferior to others because I'm not like them. Thank you for this amazing poem and concept.

  12. I was introduced to this video close when they posted it since a colleague of mine was there and she told me about it. I was moved SO much and every once in a while I will come back to this and still feel so moved as if I saw it again for the first time. WOW! Excellence job by Darius Simpson and Scout Bostley!

  13. Through the wounds no pain and the only reason it's to survive without a sound can't laugh or talk all you can hear it's your mouth speaking for you but no pain it's there for I am a person without a voice.

  14. "As a woman I have learned to answer to Every thing except my name. 'Little lady' is not said to mean equal, it is to make sure I remember my place" ๐Ÿ˜ž so true…..

  15. You know nothing for silence, until someone who cannot knoe your pain tells you how to fix it

  16. OMG that was EXCELLENT I agree with everything that was said and it makes me cry. Sometimes the truth really hurts. There are too many stupid people in our country stuck in their own stupidity who are not willing to change.

  17. So the point is … stand up for and speak for yourself? I guess if people are going to complain when others empathize or sympathize with them, why try to help them at all? But my response would be โ€” because helping others overcome evil or oppression is the right thing to do. What a strange presentation this is…

  18. The voices that have truly been silenced, nobody has ever heard. How loudly can someone say they have no voice before the irony echoes off the walls?

  19. For those of you who had trouble with how fast they talk, I tried slowing it down in the settings. Much better and more understandable.

  20. As a minority, I feel this is wrong. I believe other minorities can understand my experience, and I can understand theirs if we just have dialogue. The specifics might be different, but the pain is the same. We all bleed red blood, and we all feel the same inside. Telling others they can't understand your experience does nothing but sew seeds of division.

  21. Every person has their own "trials and tribulations" . it only when some think their troubles are worse than mine , it becomes a self indignant problem

  22. Wanda Sykes: โ€œIโ€™m a black, gay woman,โ€ Sykes said in her โ€œNewNownext Vote with Wanda Sykesโ€ special the LOGO network. โ€œI think the only way to make the GOP hate me more is if I sent them a video of me rolling around on a pile of welfare checks.โ€

  23. this is the second time iโ€™ve watched this video today and i got goosebumps both times. wow. thatโ€™s all i can say, wow. there is such power in this one video.

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